"Face the feeling like it’s nothing" but then is that what it is?
How easy do u think it is?
To walk up to them and tell them I'm a thief no an armed robber and not only that; I killed their father during one of my operations.
This will shatter them even if they already moved on.
No I'm not doing it, not now, not in the future.
The scene I picture is not as easy as u mentioned.
Doing that could mean my life.
I'm still too young, no wife. I'm not doing a task that is equivalent to sleeping on a bed of knives.
All these said from my mind but what do I hear from my conscience?
It’s silent but don't forget you can say a lot more without talking; the guilt buried in its silence,
The silence is so much that I could hear my every heart beat as if using a stethoscope. every beat louder than the previous and I can't help but tell myself that anyone who blames Judas Iscariot is a hypocrite because I just understood what he went through…
Do u even know what it feels like to live with guilt.
After every minute it's even harder to confess.
After every deep thought it’s hardest to confess.
Now I wish I dwelt in my old ways because then I had no conscience.
I hate you for preaching to me no lying to me "old things are passed away"you said.
Now I've followed you this far just for you to tell me about restitution,
The only reason I'm going to confess to them is because "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me".
Now on my way I'm most careful so as not to hurt as much as even a fly.
Because the eyes of karma never closes.
Watch your steps and mind your thoughts because no matter how long it takes KARMA is coming for you!
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