Spoken words come alive

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THE REASON WHY I AM PROUD

"He is proud." I heard a guy spoke of me.
I smiled when I heard him say that.

I was a little boy with loneliness as his companion. Inferiority complex took a major part of him, he hated himself and believed nothing good can ever come out of him.

During Children's Day Celebration in the church, I always hid and exempted myself from participating in anything. I was too conscious of making mistakes. I tried a few times to take the bull by the horn, but always had a reason not to have tried in the first place. I was mesmerized, beaten to the ground, helpless and forsaken.

I heard many people say I was the ugliest kid of my parent. They told the truth. Maybe, maybe not. The mirror was an evidence. I never like what I saw. A very skinny image of a boy who almost died of sickness. "Lepa" became his second name. His eyes bulged out like they would fall at any moment. People started calling him "oju-olomgbo." meaning cat eyes. He cried and questioned God for given him a different colour of eyeballs. His proprietress always told the other kids during assembly to call his legs "mosquito legs" after being punished with several whips of cane. One of his teeth protruded out of his gum, which made him look like a vampire. He was so fair in complexion that people called him "afin" some say "albino." some even say "ororo." People said the truth, I concluded, I was the ugliest.

Whenever I performed poorly in my exam at school, I would be spoken to like it was all my fault. My parents and aunties would take every of my mistake to be a reason why I didn't do well. And when I requested for extra food during meals, even if I would later be given, I would hear the server which was always either one of my aunties or elder sisters say after sucking me dry with a look of rejection and irritation, "that's the only thing you are good at." Then a long hiss would follow.

Almost everybody had one ill thing to say about me. It gave me sleepless night, and finally made me shrink deep into my shell.

When I took the second position in Primary five, my joy was full. My dad would buy crate of mineral like he always did for my younger sister, who was in the same class with me. I got home and was the first to declare what position I took. I saw expressions that weren't really a smile on their faces, then "you tried" was all that were muttered. I was mad! I did it for them. In fact, I was living just to please people.

My elder brother told me the most demeaning words I have heard people say to me. During a youth convention in my church when I was eighteen. I wrote a spoken word to be said, though I was going to read it from the typed sheet of paper. I opted into writing because that was the only remedy and companion which was always ready to let me wet it with my words filled with burdens. I gave the piece of writing to my elder brother, who asked me what the theme of the program was when he read my topic. I told him. He asked me what was mine, I told him. Then he asked, "What is the correlation? If you don't have something to do on that day, come sit and watch people who have better things to do." He flung the sheet of paper back at me, who was sitting on the floor. Tears beclouded my eyes, I grabbed the dangling sheet of paper in the air and tore it to pieces.

I hated myself for trying yet again. I hated writing, my companion. I slid into hell.

I dropped my pen for more than a year against my wish. Though I tried picking it up to write, but I dropped it again because I didn't want to go through the torment of abuses for lack of my competence.

So many other bitter experiences were what I had to deal with as a boy. And these were the reasons I smiled when I heard that guy's shallow mind speak. He didn't know how hard I prayed and fought to get me to this place.

Well, what I exhibit now isn't pride, it is simply self confidence, reliance and belief. Unlike before, I confide in myself because experiences have taught me a great deal, I rely on my abilities because no one could do any better, and I believe in myself because I am one of a kind. I grew up facing critics and abuses in each step I took. I'm stronger now. Words don't get to me anymore.

Do not let anybody define yourself to you, no one can know you any better than how you know yourself. And if they speak ill of you, forgive them for their blindness and shallow thinking. Oh! Remember, "if nobody talks about you, then you are nobody."- Tuface Idibia

I have grown to be a happy young man with a vision, maybe that's why I'm proud!

Me now

Me before

TELL MR. PRESIDENT

 Tell Mr. President this;

Tell him I’m here, I’m dying of death,

Tell him that fate and hope are farfetched.

Tell him that he is a coward!

He is dull, blind and a disgrace to presidency.

Tell him to switch on his television set.

Tell him to listen to the radio to hear about the outburst of death in the land.

Tell him to read newspapers.

Tell him, convince him.

He doesn’t read, he is as dumb as his Fulani cows.

How can he say herdsmen have nothing but sticks with them?

When then did sticks start releasing bullets?

How come innocent lives drop dead in every trespass of herdsmen?

How come about 200 people were burnt in their sleep? 

 Tell him to tell me!

Do we now fight invisible enemies?

Or humans now drop dead like the fruits from a tree?

At least we have identified the cause to our death he foolishly denies,

So tell him to tell me why people die?

Tell him!

Tell him to tell me about his foolishness.

He should release the senselessness he stores in his empty skull.

 

I thought he was a soldier?

A soldier who was never sold to course!

Now see what his cluelessness has caused us?

He fights corruption but he is corruption personified.

He has exposed how not enough he is as a man.

He promised to fight and end boko haram few months after swearing in,

We waited to see his formidable plans into every force,

We waited to feel secured that we have a man who is truly for everybody and for nobody

But our hopes were all dashed against the rock when he appointed a dullard like himself to transmit a transmission that will kill him soon, so I can spit on his grave.

The only thing I wish him is anything worse than death.

I don’t have any regret writing this.

Tell Mr. President I said it!

THIS IS ONE OF THE BEST SET OF ADVISE l HAVE EVER READ. ALL MANKIND NEEDS THIS ADVICE!!!

 *1.* _Take risks in your life. If you win, you can lead; if you lose, you can guide._

*2.* _People are not what they say but what they do; so judge them not from their words but from their actions._

*3.* _When someone hurts you, don't feel bad because it's a law of nature that the tree that bears the sweetest fruits gets maximum number of stones._

*4.* _Take whatever you can from your life because when life starts taking from you, it takes even your last breath._

*5.* _In this world, people will always throw stones on the path of your success. It depends on what you make from them - a wall or a bridge._

*6.* _Challenges make life interesting; overcoming them make life meaningful._

*7.* _There is no joy in victory without running the risk of defeat._

*8.* _A path without obstacles leads nowhere._

 

*9.* _Past is a nice place to visit but certainly not a good place to stay._

*10.* _You can't have a better tomorrow if you are thinking about yesterday all the time._

*11.* _If what you did yesterday still looks big to you, then you haven't done much today._

*12.* _If you don't build your dreams, someone else will hire you to build theirs._

*13.* _If you don't climb the mountain; you can't view the plain._

*14.* _Don't leave it idle - use your brain._

*15.* _You are not paid for having brain, you are only rewarded for using it intelligently._

*16.* _It is not what you don't have that limits you; it is what you have but don't know how to use._

*17.* _What you fail to learn might teach you a lesson._

*18.* _The difference between a corrupt person and an honest person is: The corrupt person has a price while the honest person has a value._

*19.* _If you succeed in cheating someone, don't think that the person is a fool...... Realize that the person trusted you much more than you deserved._

*20.* _Honesty is an expensive gift; don't expect it from cheap people._