WISHES AND THOUGHTS

I don't wanna be like christians who think they need not Christ because they've grown so wise in their eyes...
But to be frank, I'm tired of preachers without a message. Their words make me float carelessly, and gullible to be pranked; giving me reasons to believe that a little of the devil is no evil.
Sometimes I wonder what differentiates me from Lucifer. I connive with my friends round a table in a bar to tear down my temple with liquor. At least we know the devil, but I'm that angel you can never know.
Staring at the letters that bear life as I flip over the pages of the scripture, i want to be as good as much as bad, but how will I survive by being good in a world that killed Christ?
I hate this world! Its no longer innocent like it was when I was young. The sun now emits corruption, and I foresee adult movies shown in kiddies event .
Sometimes I wish I never existed, so I wouldn't end up being convicted to feast in the prison of the prisoner I had encaged a million times through selfless effort to negate sin, and a steady yell of warfare and fire of the Holy Ghost.
I'm tired of religions that preach peace but their soul goal is war. They try to make men live in peace to disarm them of their aggressiveness so they would in the long run still make them die in crises.
I love God because he is forgiving and patient, unlike men who still hold on to Moses' an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth.
I love Lucifer for his consistency and persistence, but never for his foolishness, for he can't see a second of time.
I love life inasmuchas lazy men who try to make their lives better has ended up serving other men death in a cup of life. Other men now live to fulfil all righteousness neglecting purpose.
Just like my fellow humans, I love so many things about life, but hate some no doubt; not forgetting that there is a thin line between love and hate.
I love men who love to love. But I love more the men who hate to love, because when they love, they love!
I pray nobody should be like me, not that I'm too holy of emulation or so bad to be condemned, but that everyone should be like themselves; knowing and being who they really are.